Love

Assalamualaikum.... 

Hi peeps, I know I've been writing too much lately. 😅 Hope y'all don't mind because 

1) I am bored as hell. I've loads of assignments tapi I takde mood nak buat. Heeee so this is the escape place. ✌

2) I have so much thoughts lately and I wanna let it out here. So I basically written my online diary teehee 😁 

So for today's thought, it would be about love. It has been bothering me since yesterday. 

I have never been in a real relationship. Well, if the puppy love counted then that is my first and last relationship. So I've been single for quite some times. Dari sekolah menengah sampai I umur 22 y/o. 

Sepanjang waktu tu, I quite anticipate when is my time? Sebab most of my friends, have been in a real relationship at least once. Until one time, I rasa end of last year kut. I really don't care kalau I single. I mean, I'm freaking don't care. I love staying alone. And that makes me the best listener for my friends' love stories. 

Recently, I watched dramas so of courselah banyak scene romance - that is the core of the drama kut. So I've been thinking cam aaaa bestnya ada someone yg boleh listen to all your stories and complaints. Tapi dia cam datang kejap je. Lepas tu the thought blew away and I am still okay with being single. My okay tu sampai tahap I DGAF with my friends' love stories. I'm happy for them tapi it really doesn't affect me at all. 

So what's bothering me is, does everyone really has the "IDGAF on the love life" period in their life? Even without being broken hearted in the first place. 

Does everyone take "kalau ada jodoh, ada lah. Kalau takde takpe" too serious in his life to the point they lose interest in starting a relationship? 

I know, 

Kita kena usaha cari, baru jodoh tu ada. Tapi do you have the energy to "usaha" if you dont have any interest on starting a serious relationship? 

It really is bothering me. 

I mean, yes you can choose to be alone, yet you need to find your partner because everything is created in two. 

These days, I read a lot about cheating. Either in a relationship or marriage, and it adds up to my believe that staying single or alone is enough. I lose my believe in relationship. Hence, I lose my believe in marriage. You know, it really doesn't worth to be hurt by somebody you loved the most. 

I do believe in love. Love is powerful. Love brings people together. Love, gives people happiness.

Tapi in a way, 

Love will be the most painful thing to possess, when you are hurt by somebody you love the most. The love is no longer powerful. 

Tell me how do you fall in love? 

Tell me what is it like to be in love? 

Tell me why do you fall in love? 

And tell me, 

Is it worth it, to endure the pain caused by somebody you love? 

Till then peeps, I really hope I can figure this out soon. 

To those yg dah bahagia bersama pasangan tercinta, I'm happy for you. Jaga your relationship baik baik. 

To those who are still strugglin' in finding love, I hope you will find one soon. 

To those who are in the same boat as mine, nah I send you my virtual hugs. May someday we will be enlightened by love. *hugs* 

And oh ya, if you have anything to share, just slide to my dm, I'll listen to it.