ATIQAH JULIADANI

 Assalamualaikum....  Breathe in.... Breathe out.... and set!  Hi peeps 😁😁😁  Its been a while since my last post. ((I guess))  And yeah, here I am writing at 2AM hehe.  So guys I had my birthday last week on the 23rd. And yeayy finally I am turning 22 ✌✌✌ 😙😙  *insert sticker dancing bunny*  Finally dah jadi dewasa tapi masih dengan ketinggian dan wajah remaja. 😚 haha kasilah chance I nak brag sikit. 🤪  I actually wanted to write an entry on that day tapi things got held back so I needed to cancel my plan. But these things have been lingering in my mind RENT FREE! So Im gonna spit it all out today hehe. So if you are having the same problem as mine, may it helps you as well. 😊  So bismillah.  Since then, I live my life, thinking I need to be good to people if I want them to be good to me. As they say, be good and good things will happen to you. I live up to that quote for quite some times.  And yes. It works. I did good things and good things came to me. Tapi lama lama I notice

 Assalamualaikum.....  안녕히세요 여러분 🤗🤗🤗 (ok kasi canlah aku practice ek)  Hi peeps... Semoga semuanya berada di dalam keadaan sihat sejahtera. Sebenarnya aku nak jogging petang ni pastu tengah bersiap nak jogging, hujan turun :'). Maka aku pun duduklah tersandar ke dinding memikirkan apa yg nak dibuat (( ceh padahal bersusun kerja menunggu)) And ting! Muncullah idea nak menulis entry di waktu waktu begini  Jarang amet ya aku menulis di waktu begini, bukan je ilmu tak masuk idea pun tak masuk. Tapi disebabkan aku memang tgh holding onto this one idea so harapnya smooth jelah ya penulisan kalini. Dan harapnya jugak smooth jelah perkongsian kalini masuk ke minda korang seterusnya melekat menjadi ilmu haaa gittew. Panjang pulek muqaddimah dia.  Ok last week, aku punya schedule memang busy roks sebab USIM tetibe anjurkan "USIM's  Finishing School" untuk final year student. Haah aku lah tu. Final year student yg tersakiti sebab tak dapat buat lab work. *sobs  Ok long short

 Here's a poem from an untalented poet.  Untuk kamu yg masih mencari jalan. Here it is, moga Tuhan temukan kamu dan aku di negri abadi.  Aku tahu kamu, Dan aku berbeza, Namun hakikatnya kita, Dimiliki pemilik yang sama. Kamu jauh, Tak terjangkau aku, Namun harus kamu tahu, Bahwa kita, Masih dalam jangkauanNya. Aku harap kamu belum mengalah, Belum pasrah, Belum berhenti melangkah. Moga suatu hari nanti, Tuhanku pimpin kamu, Menuju negeri abadi, Tanpa kotor dosa menuruti. Walau kita tak sempat bertemu, Doaku, Semoga kamu, Sempat berteduh di bawah kasih Tuhanku.

 Assalamualaikum... Hi peeps. Wah kemain ya rajin Atiqah ni buat entry time time MCO ni haih. Buat assignments malas tapi tulis entry rajin pulak hmmm.  So tonight, I feel especially upset/sad or idk. Tapi feeling yg tak best lah (ugh I hate it!) Maybe sebab dah lama pkp kut so emosi and otak I dah tak parallel. I think I should start seeing psychiatrics. Ecececece over pulek 😒.  Okay so sebenarnya I just wanna share my random thought. Lately, I selalu dengar banyak sangat kematian (mungkin nilah kut yg buatkan I jadi too emotional kebelakangan ni).  Be it somebody who is close to me or a complete stranger. Tak kisahlah yg mana satu pun, the news was so much devastating. Tapi alhamdulillah, semua yg pergi tu, waktu hidup dulu sangat dihargai orang lain. In other word, they are so loved by other people. Sampaikan kadang kadang ada a complete stranger pun sama sama bersedih mengenangkan arwah yg sudah pergi tu.  And it made me think of myself. Looking back, I left nothing for the world

 Hai Assalamualaikum!  Holla peeps. Im back!!! 😎  Fuh jarang jarang ya I tulis entry waktu siang macam ni *lap peluh* Rasanya masih belum terlambat kut untuk I ucapkan congratulations kepada semua pelajar pelajar yg mendapat tawaran untuk sambung pelajaran ke peringkat yang lebih tinggi (universiti dan seangkatan dengannya I mean).  Congratulations 🥳🥳🥳  Selamat datang ke dunia di mana benda paling susah nak decide adalah baju apa nak pakai time lecture sejam atau dua jam je sehari 🤗🤗🤗  Haha takdela gurau je.  Tapi apa apa pun tahniah sebab dah berjaya melangkahkan kaki ke alam impian korang ecececece. Yg kurang berjaya tu takpe insyaAllah ada rezeki lebih baik di masa hadapan.  Bila sembang pasal zaman universiti ni mestilah benda pertama sekali bermain di fikiran adalah yuran pengajian. Yuran ni memang nightmare lah untuk students semua, ngl. Sebab yelah nama pun students kan kita bukannya worker jadi duit tu macam chipsmore, kadang kadang ada, kadang kadang tinggal dompet je.

Assalamualaikum.... Hi peeps.  Tanggal 31  Bulan 8  Lima puluh tujuh Merdeka Merdeka  Tetaplah Merdeka  Ia pasti Menjadi sejarah  -Tanggal 31 Ogos (Allahyarham Sudirman)  Wah kemain ya start dengan lagu. 😏  Walaupun lagi beberapa minit nak masuk bulan September dah tapi I tetap nak tulis jugak an entry. Moga sempatlah post before 1 Sept. ((Btw its Jungkook BTS' birthday hehe))  Okay so Independence. Merdeka. Hari kebebasan.  You name it!  Tapi merdeka ke kita? ((Amboi ayat typical tazkirah))  Takdelah I bukan nak bagi tazkirah pun. Chill je okay. Relax je. 😎  I dah 22 tahun hidup. (Walaupun realitinya tak sampai lagi 22 tahun) And serius, banyak bezanya sambutan kemerdekaan waktu I kecik setinggi meja sekolah, sampailah sekarang dah setinggi pagar. ((Ecece analogi ketinggian tu macam nak maki pulak rasa))  I still remember, waktu kecik kecik dulu I used to pasang bendera around the school. Hias kelas macam nak sambut raya padahal nak sambut kemerdekaan je pun. Pastu pacak bendera

 Assalamualaikum... Hi peeps. 🤗🤗🤗 Sejak sejak MCO ni makin rajin pulak nak buat entry. 😁  First of all, I hope everybody would stay healthy and stay safe. Pakai face mask and hand sanitizer. Ikut SOP. We wanna make the digit stays 0 all the time oki. 😚 #bukaniklanberbayar Jadi seperti tradisi sebelum sebelum ni, setiap enam bulan mesti akan ada satu entry yg summarizekan my current semester. (Wah macam perjalanan kehidupan pulek. 😑)   Kenapa enam bulan?  Sebab satu semester lebih kurang enam bulan campur examinations. So kita round off jela jadi enam bulan oki. 👌😚  Tapi semester ni yg terpaling panjang lah sebab 3 bulan cuti hehe. Tak pernah dibuat orang start semester february habis august. Ni kalau habis hujung sikit ni boleh sambut sekali dengan hari kemerdekaan. Nak kata bebasnya tu kan. #janganingattimepkptakdeclassya  Okay so untuk semester ni, I would say this is the new normal semester lah. Kitorang just sempat beberapa minggu je (4 weeks if im not mistaken) dekat uni a

 Assalamualaikum.... Hi peeps. I baru habis tengok #ItsOkayNotToBeOkay!!!! *jerit*  Lately I jarang tau tengok kdrama sebab panjang so I lagi suka tengok Chinese drama ngee 😁😁  Tapikan I wouldn't deny yg online class really got me headache 💆‍♀️💆‍♀️💆‍♀️ Disebabkan I emotional dengan online class so I crave teruk nak tengok this drama. Sebab tajuk dia kut kena sangat dengan my situation at that time. And yeah, I tak tunggu lama. Habis je week 14 I terus download and tengok hari hari. 😁😁  So today I nak  share 8 sebab kenapa drama #ItsOkayNotToBeOkay ni kena masuk dalam must-watch list korang!  Sebelum tu let me give a brief synopsis of  the story first.  Make way for the hero and heroin pleaseeeee Cerita ni actually berkisar tentang dua orang adik beradik, Moon Gang Tae and Moon Sang Tae yg mana hidup dorang ni sentiasa nomad (berpindah randah). Sang Tae ni autistic child and dia suffers a traumatic experience berkaitan mak dia. Gang Tae is a caregiver. One day, takdir temukan

Assalamualaikum....  Hi peeps, I know I've been writing too much lately. 😅 Hope y'all don't mind because  1) I am bored as hell. I've loads of assignments tapi I takde mood nak buat. Heeee so this is the escape place. ✌ 2) I have so much thoughts lately and I wanna let it out here. So I basically written my online diary teehee 😁  So for today's thought, it would be about love. It has been bothering me since yesterday.  I have never been in a real relationship. Well, if the puppy love counted then that is my first and last relationship. So I've been single for quite some times. Dari sekolah menengah sampai I umur 22 y/o.  Sepanjang waktu tu, I quite anticipate when is my time? Sebab most of my friends, have been in a real relationship at least once. Until one time, I rasa end of last year kut. I really don't care kalau I single. I mean, I'm freaking don't care. I love staying alone. And that makes me the best listener for my friends' love storie

Hi Assalamualaikum......  Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha to all muslims 😊😊😊 I takde raya haji dah because I got endless assignments to be done 😭😭😭 #onlineclassproblem So today I got my geraham tooth taken out! For those yang tak tahu, sini I tunjuk gambar the geraham tooth yg I kena cabut tadi.  Mine was the second molar.  I start rasa sakit around 3 weeks ago tau. Sebelum ni ada je tapi ngilu time makan je time lain dia tak kacau. Tapi this time, dia kacau my sleep. Luckily, I have friend yg study dental subjects so I asked Sarah pasal my pain. Hahahaha I cerita macam dia ada kat depan I tau pity her 😂 tapi okaylah I love it sebab macam dapat personal advice before I jumpa the real dentist besoknya. (P/s: Sarah pun bakal dentist ya semua)  Mula mula I ingat gigi geraham bawah tu yg sakit tau because my wisdom tooth dia tumbuh baring (I found out from the dentist), so the growth process tu impact my geraham tooth. Pastu esoknya I pelik cam asal sakit sangat kan tapi kat situ tak be

Assalamualaikum... Hai harini I taknak rant on my sadness or anything.  Since pkp ni, I know many of us are affected. Me too, not able to go to class, meet friends, financial is unstable but got loads of things to pay and etc.  But to look at the bright side, pkp has taught me soooo much things that I once took for granted.  I get to spend almost the whole year at home. Get to wake up and see my family everyday is the best thing ever happened to me. I feel content. I love my siblings so much that I feel there's no need for somebody else. I am happy as long as my family is happy. We're not rich in money. But alhamdulillah we're rich in love. And that's something I wouldn't trade with anything in the world.  There's not a day I regret of spending time at home. Alhamdulillah, Allah gives me a good family for me to spend with. And I am so sorry to those who stayed with their family but didn't feel like home. I hope Allah gives you something great in return. Aami

Assalamualaikum. Hi everyone.  So these days, lepas I rant dekat sini, I've been better. Maybe bcs I let it out kut even bukan pada manusia haaa gittew.  And dah few weeks, I started to work out. Sebab I percaya a healthy body can lead to a healthy mind so I working out towards that. And Alhamdulillah so far, Tuhan jaga I dari semua feeling yg I tak suka. Dari my alter ego yg I taktahu macam mana nak get rid of tu. ALHAMDULILLAH 🥰🥰🥰  So I nak ingatkan semua orang, yg kalau boleh, jangan la duduk sorang sorang. Sebab loneliness tu yg sebenarnya swallowing ourself. In my case I rasa sebab tu kut. Sebab I sorang sorang and I feel that I have nowhere to go. Nobody to turn to. Sampai my another half boleh take over my body and my thoughts. I love this so much. Walaupun sometimes I sendu jugak sikit for some reasons. Contohnya harini sendu sikit bcs my childhood friend bertunang hahahahahah. Takdelah I gurau je. I tak kisah pun. In fact I happy kut hidup single cemni. Lepak je hehe. I

Assalamualaikum and hi everyone. 😇  Kalau macam sebelum ni, I will put the link of my entry on my social medias tapi for the time being I rasa I stop dulu kut sebab these days I may write about something that's bugging me for quite a long time, tapi I just cant find someone to talk to. Some that I can really rely on. So for those yg terbaca:  Thank you - that means you're checking up on                             me silently.  Sorry           - because you need to read my rant                            frequently.  Congrats     - Because I dont open up to people so                          easily so you're the chosen one. 😁 So korang pernah tak rasa a period in your life yang korang memang down sangat? You passed your breaking point. You fall, but you are too scared to get up and fight back. Over the time, you develop a new side of yourself - I am currently in the middle of this battle.  I realized that I had this kind of feeling in the mid of fifth semester (in my prev

Assalamualaikum and hi everyone.  Harini takde nak cerita something specific pun I just nak share sikit je. Disebabkan BLM movement baru baru ni I terus ada deep thought everyday tau. Pastu tadi lepas sembahyang isyak kan, tiba tiba I terfikir tau, beruntungnya aku boleh sembahyang isyak macam ni. I mean, dalam keadaan tenang macam ni, takde orang larang, takde orang akan hukum you kalau you solat. Tiba tiba je tau. I kalau dalam solat selalu lah imagine bercakap dengan Allah. Yelah sebab solat tu sendiri kan medium untuk bercakap dengan Allah.  So tadi macam sebak sikitlah sebab I teringat orang orang dekat negara bergolak yang nak solat pun susah, nak pakai tudung pun susah ada orang judge ada orang hina. Tapi I kat sini senang senang je buat semua tu. Takde pun orang nak hina sebab pakai tudung, tak pernah pun kena harrased sebab pakai tudung.  Pastu lagi beruntungnya aku kat sini bebas je nak pergi mana mana takde orang halau tiba tiba suruh balik. Takde orang ejek I even colour ku

Assalamualaikum w.b.t..... Hi and salam Ramadhan to all muslims. Hehe Dan tak lupa juga salam MCO hari keberapa entah tak ingat (I lost count on the days already 😅)  I wanted to write since hari pertama Ramadhan tapi biasalah idea tu ada malas tu je lebih sikit so tengoklah lapan hari selepas baru nak tulis. Actually I nak tulis even before Ramadhan sebab konon nak cerita pasal Covid 19 and us tapi last last tak tulis pun sebab I practically tired from doing nothing. 😆 (tak sebenarnya I malas melebih) Kalaula ada magical things macam Rita Skeeter guna untuk tulis news dalam Harry Potter (uwu calling all potterheads) I rasa I will be the first yg guna. Sebab malas nak type sendiri 😂😂😂 How's your Ramadhan so far? Mine would always be amazing. 👌 Ah! Also before terlupa I nak welcome our new brothers and sisters yg baru belajar nak puasa. Whatever it is you guys did well. 😊 Okay biasanya time Ramadhan ni orang akan jadikan a kickstart to something new. Ataupun a